Questions of You

We all have vulnerabilities that scare us and cause us to want to go into a shell.

For instance, in being transparent, writing makes me vulnerable. Vulnerable to criticism, judgement, opinions, thoughts… all that is not my own. Anyone can weigh in on your work, your art. Writing is like glass to me. Its the window to my soul. It’s where everything that is me gets laid out. It does not have a filter unlike everything else. When I put my pen to paper without hesitation, I just flow. Flowing can be upstream or down stream. That’s maybe why I choose not to write every day. I don’t think everything should be said or shared. I love, mystery, which writing has its own. It’s the mystery about the person who is writing, or is it? Could it be that writing solves the mystery and shows who I/we really am/are? What am I afraid of? What should I fear? Is it so wrong for people to know you? I don’t know. All I know is I don’t want the judgement, glares, sympathies, congratulations, opinions…I don’t even know if I want the attention. I just want an outlet. An outlet of freedom of no holds bar. To be. Its just so hard to just be without being concerned.

We as a society have come so far but yet so behind. We wear our feelings on our sleeves. At least, I know I can. Its tough. But does it have to be? Acceptance is key. We have to accept our differences, strengths, and weaknesses. This is what makes us an individual. Our individuality makes this world so beautiful. Especially when we are striving for our own personal best. For our best is continuous work on our part, it encompasses our character. It is all of who we are and do.

What does that mean? How do you comprehend and quantify?

My concern in my quest for deeper meaning, soul searching purpose, is that its real simple and not as deep as I want it to be. We say we have to come into our own. Our own what? What is it to just love? And love? Love, means many things to different people, yet it still comes down to one… Love without the extra baggage and crap. Love without thought of opinion, judgement, or hypocrisy. Love in movement and saying. Love in action.

But how? Is it with a who? I just don’t know because sometimes it can be hard to love another especially when you define love in your own way. When we constantly change the description and definition we tend to change the outcome. Is that why its so askew? Or is love another vulnerability? Is it something that puts you on display and reveals your inner you, your truth? Does it leave you in a place to be judged? Yes, at times, if you choose to look at it this way.

Vulnerability should be embraced, especially if it allows you, the real you to come forward… whether good or bad. It allows you to correct, grow, be better, share, care, and love. Vulnerability brings forth work, hard work, not to work hard to cover up, but excellence, not perfection, but excellence. Excellence says do better, be better than yesterday. Excellence allows healthy competition in you which gives the world a better you.

Because out of it all we are not higher or created for ourselves, but the world around us. We are a sum of parts with Christ as our head.