Shall We Begin...

It's been a year to say the least. I'm not sure how to feel right now. Should I be excited that its finally over or consider whats next. Since I stepped out and went after my dreams it has been a roller coaster, but not a fun one. I want to laugh, not cry. I want joy and not sadness. I want peace and not chaos. I’m not sure what to expect, but I know one thing this journey has made me really want to take my life seriously. Seriously, as in being more decisive about purpose. Realizing that being an adult is about making the hard decisions and doing the things you really don't want to do. You live your dream by working hard at making it happen, by being able to support your passion with your talent or skill. I normally wouldn't give details about my life, but I feel compelled to express and tell in detail.

So we begin with the awakening...

From being in an environment of deception, to no job, no direction, uncertainty, and no focus or accomplishments. I won't defile my pages by naming names and name calling, by talking about the egregiousness of character of those who say they know God or care for the abused or neglected. I’ll pass on engaging those who choose to always take and never give back. I don't know about whats out in the world, but it seems as if priorities are a wry. Truth is getting watered down and people are choosing not to be their authentic selves for the sake of a like. What I mean is your heart, you, who you re, is not for sale? Not for me to judge. I'm not perfect, by no means. All I know is I’d rather be me, who ever I am or becoming. Becoming who is pure not based on feeling or hurt.

I know it’s possible to shine thru the darkness of our circumstance or experience. I know it can be done with God at the helm. God is my protector. I am so grateful He is with me and was with me in the Lion's den. I appreciate that He has kept me safe and sane. I'm happy knowing that I know without a shadow of a doubt He will go wherever I'm at, be by my side, and let me know He will bring me thru. Thank you God. Its important to be true to myself and my God. Its important to move forward and do what I'm suppose to do.